How's life now that I'm back in Oregon?
Weird.
Still weird. Every day. Will I ever find "normal" again?
There are no stray dogs.
There are no songtheaws.
The streets, the houses, the world, it's all so clean.
But lifeless, too. Where are the mothers washing their clothes in the front yard? Where are the toddlers dashing happily around and staring up at me with big brown eyes? And the elderly man out on the deck for fresh air? And the chickens among the garden??
I shrug and reminisce in my warm jacket, wondering why I am so COLD in this 70 degree world.
But maybe it's more than the temperature that needs some warming.
I walk along my street and see maybe one neighbor, if I'm lucky. And what gets me is, they don't smile.
I do, though. I try to smile at everyone. I'm seeing happiness as it should be seen. In all of the small things.
Thailand also taught me that only some things matter. And the others, maybe you can just let go.
This experience called "Thailand" will stay with me for as long as I'm alive, and I hope it will stay with you even after that. With all of the memories that I hold, the hours the days the months speed by, and here I am, convincing myself it was real. It is real. And someday I will go back, taking another along, so it can be real for them too.
*takes a bow* Thank you, for reading, and for letting me share a part of my world.
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